Self-Worthiness

Only when you found back your self-worthiness, you will learn to love yourself.



I came up with the above theory today.

Because I am gradually beginning to feel it all.

I finally felt that I am still worth something, with all the several working choices popping up in front of me for the last 2days.

Because I feel good, I want to feel and look better, hence my dieting plan to hit 50kg.



These few months hasn't been easy for me. Picking myself up and dropping into the low-morale hole, and dragging myself up again, constantly telling myself, "Always look on the bright side of life." Because situations could have been alot worse.

But as much as I assured myself that things will always turn out to be better, I was losing my self-worthiness unknowingly. I felt unwanted, unmotivated, with no working goal to pursue, no sense of recognition from anywhere, and spending some low-morale days when I felt I my time was simply unprecious and useless. Drinking madly often to drown my mental mind, playing neopet games and watching all the HBO and SCV channels possible to cover up for what I was.

In other words, it felt like a piece of white paper crushed and into the trash bin, and doomed to stay in that zone forever.



For the last 2 days and going, I'm slowly building my self-worthiness, with BB helping and encouraging me along the way, about shopping for shirts and pants thingy soon, and getting myself prepared for any possible jobs to come.

(I also want to help BB and bless that he hear good news soon.)

Tonight, I had bothered to spend at least 30mins in front of the mirror to do the proper pampering and night care of my face, like toner, eye cream, and bits here and there. (I simply neglected my face for the last few months.... just the basic face cleaning and that was it...)


The crushed paper now taken out from the bin and trying to smooth the creases out of it so in preparation to be penned with alot of promising stuffs to come.


The power of self-worthiness.

Makes you want to look at yourself in the mirror closer in details for another 1 more minute.

Because you are worth it.